Bad days

I’ve been having a few bad days….the other day I was walking with my cane and both of my legs gave out. I tried to stand back up, but I couldn’t. Thank goodness Ange was with me, he got behind me and picked me up, then he helped me walk slowly to a bench. My left knee was bleeding, but luckily my friend Erin, Isabella\'s Mom, had a bandaid. I had to hold in the uncontrollable tears that wanted to flow..it scared the crap out of me that my legs gave out, and lately I have been very tired. I’m trying to think it’s like the other ladies in my group who are experiencing the same thing, but my nurse just called and said that just to be sure they are taking an extra blood test on Friday to make sure it’s not my liver enzymes.

Every time I cry it hurts.. My eyes burn and my body clenches in pain..

Just now as I was typing I received a text from Isabella’s Mom…Please,Please include Isabella, Erin (Mom, Stuart (Dad), Grant(little brother), and Sophia(little sister) in your prayers…even if you don’t pray…please do today for me…

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19 Responses to Bad days

  1. Patrick says:

    Saying it now- a prayer loud and clear for Isabella, Erin, Stuart, Grant, Sophia, and you. I am so sorry to hear this news. Love you so much and am thinking of you all day today and sending love and light your way from the left coast. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

  2. Sasha says:

    Jen I am too. I am here for you always. Love love love you.

  3. bgionti says:

    I say a prayer every day for you, Angelo and Isabella – and today – I will begin to include Erin, Stuart, Grant, and Sophia in those prayers. I am so glad that Angelo was there with you to pick you up. Give that man a big hug from me — what is that quote…something like “It is not what you do, but how much love you put into the doing that matters.” — Jen… there is obviously a lot of love in his doing —– what a good man — and you deserve to have the best!!! xoxo

  4. Katie Chery says:

    Sending you super sized love tonight to keep you surrounded and protected from the bad days. I think about you constantly (like so many others) and send good energy, light, a smile, whatever it is you seem to need most at the moment, in my thoughts. Tonight I’m sending peace for your heart, mind, body, and dreams. I love you.

  5. Nicole says:

    praying for you and your friends. holy oil in the mail. you should get it this week. your friend in chicago. n

  6. eeyore1 says:

    Hi Jen…I’m sorry you have been having “bad days”…I wish we were closer so that we could walk with you and help you when you fall. I am signed on to get Erin’s posts about Isabella so we know she is having a hard time right now too. We pray for both of you and keep you close in our thoughts daily. I am hoping that you have some good days coming, and look forward to seeing you soon. ((hugs)) to you and Angelo, sister…

  7. Kendra says:

    I’m praying for you every single day my dear Jennifer, and will add Isabella, Stuart, Erin, Grant and Sophia to my daily meditation. You are so loved and I wish there was some way to take all of this away. Love you so dearly and you and Ange are the center of my meditations, every time I’m on the cushion. I love you. XXOOOO

  8. Stephanie says:

    Praying, praying, praying for all of you!! You are all in my thoughts and prayers today. Love you Jen

  9. Tina says:

    Jen. I so wish I could take your pain away and wipe your tears. I know every day is difficult for you and know that we are all standing here, by your side, praying for you and Ang and for better, brighter and stronger days. I will keep Isabella and her family in my prayers. I hope you can feel the love and support even if I am miles away!! Love you. XOXO

  10. Katie Chery says:

    Sitting work but thinking of you, my friend. Xxxooo

  11. Michelle says:

    Thinking of you and sending many many prayers for Isabella and her family. I know you both mean the world to each other. We are all here. Anything you need. Love you.

  12. lu says:

    sending prayers to everyone tonight…i’m so sad that you are having such a hard time lately. and amazed at how selfless you are…in the middle of your blog post you shifted energy away from yourself and on to your little friend…this world is so blessed to have you in it…i love you, dear friend. will call tomorrow,if you feel like chatting, answer. if not,i’ll leave you a message and hope to hear from you. big hugs.

  13. Jessica says:

    I hate that that happened to you, it must have been so very scary. I’m so glad Ange and Erin were there with you. It could very well be what your other support group girls are experiencing, but I’m glad that Traina is paying attention and making sure that every stone is turned. I’m sorry it hurts to cry. Sometimes, that’s the only thing we can do — feel what we have to, and then just let it go, that outlet is so critical — it’s meditation, and faith, and healing.

    I’m sending love and prayers for peace and healing to you and your family and Isabella and hers right now.

  14. Sending prayers to everyone, Isabella and Erin and all the Santos and to you and Angelo sweet friend. Wish I could take away your pain. Love you very much dearheart. xo

  15. Tina in Clevelfand says:

    My prayers are with Isabella, her family and you.My heart physically hurts for all of you. May you feel our prayers of love & comfort. Love, Tina & “I Am Not Alone”

  16. deb says:

    Thank you for your kind heart will make sure I give in a hug from miss Jen and ange!

  17. Jen may the hands of angels comfort you and lift your strength and health. May the love of those who pray and think of you give you positive vibes and have you out soon. With much love and prayers,

    M & M Swafford

  18. anne says:

    Prayers, love and light are being sent from southern California to you, Angelo and Isabella and her family from me and my family! Xoxo

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