Can you tell that this is the face of a girl in a cancer center waiting room?Waiting to be seen by her therapist?While also awaiting a phone call, since this morning with PET/CT results from her oncologist?
Yesterday, today and a few days prior have been totally crap. Ange and I both have felt numb, anxious, and out of sorts.. The time spent waiting for test results is the worst..you second guess everything and become superstitious about everything you see and do.
So yesterday, I used the bathroom on the left, like I have a million times before and headed back to my therapists office, while keeping my phone tightly clenched in my hand so I wouldn’t miss the call.
It was perfect, in a way, that my doctor was going to call during my therapy session…however I was going to process it, I could do it with her…
At exactly 4:40pm my phone rang and it was my oncologist. She told me the preliminary results were in and although there aren’t any new spots in my liver,
the spots that are already there are more intense. She asked me if I was having pain in my hip or pelvis,…I said not really, and how would I know since I take the amount of painkillers I do. She asked me that because there are some new spots in that area and there are also previous spots that are showing up as more intense. She did also mention that they are a few areas that have remained stable, but because I was so caught up in the other stuff I forgot to ask her where those areas are.. Ange and I assume that its in my neck and possibly back, but we will find out for sure on Friday when we meet with her.
She said it is time time to switch chemo drugs, possibly a clinical trial, but we’ll figure that out on Friday as well.
I know that everyone has a lot of serious things going on in their lives but if you could take a moment and send us your very best thoughts…that would be beautiful…