Yesterday was such a nice day….three of my lovely friends stopped by with a basket of goodies!! And one of them brought her new puppy that I am crazy about!!! After they left another lovely friend came over with warm hugs and helped me for hours with a really boring task..
I fell asleep early, but unfortunately, I was up all night.
And now today, I am sad. I feel like the girl who has cancer. The girl who doesn’t want to get out of bed. The girl who people feel sorry for, whose stares at my bald head and young face make them them frown..I try so hard most days to keep my sadness from you, and from myself. But somedays my control is weak and it overflows..
My sweet friend Kendra sent me this note yesterday…
“I know it’s easy for me to say all of this as I’m not in your shoes (or seat, as it is in meditation) and I make no assumptions that I understand or can even begin to comprehend what you’re going through. What I hope I can offer is just a reminder that meditation is always there for you – every time you breathe – to allow you to let go of the what-if’s, let go of the fear and worry, and separate ‘you’ from the stories that your mind loves to create for you.
My wish is that your every breath – so essential to life – can offer you boundless freedom from the stress you feel every day.”
My wish is to listen.