thank you so much to all of you for helping me yesterday..
ange took care of me last night, dinner, popcorn, everything i needed..that helped..he was sad seeing me so sad..but i don’t know how to kick it right now..im at work, not under a rock..taking a pill for anxiety, drinking calming tea..
i know this will pass, but part of me feels like i need to allow it..feel like im in mourning for the old “new normal” me and i have to get used to the “new, new normal” me..
by Camille & Larry Wise at Wednesday, September 22, 2010, 8:56 AM
Well Jen, first of all anyone from this Family isn’t normal. Probably that is a good thing since we do have a release from time to time such as “richland road” or gorganzola. I often think of Uncle Paul when he was sick and could barely talk. He would sometimes in his gravely voice give out the FU and laugh. So don’t forget to think of those crazy things we do and have done. They help!. Hope your day is better Bumper.
by Jessica Moser at Wednesday, September 22, 2010, 10:53 AM
I think you are so smart to acknowledge all this crap, and to know it will pass, and to let yourself be taken care of. You are SO not under a rock — you are completely in the moment — at work, at dragon boat races, with Ange — living life. The bad news is, when you do that, you (we all) risk feeling things we may not want to — sad, scared, disappointed, angry… all of the above at once. But you also allow yourself the potential to feel happy, amused, silly, loved. You are doing everything right — taking meds, drinking tea — and this will work through. Mourning is such the right word, and so appropriate. But also, perhaps, you can think of yourself as a bit of a phoenix, rising from the ashes of the old “new normal” you. What it will work through to — what that new new normal is — who you are becoming — that still remains to be seen, but since it’s you at the core, it’s got to be fantastic.
The mourning feels like a critical process for you to go through, and I remain amazed at your honesty and strength as you go through it. Much, much love – Jessica
by Nancy Hafter at Thursday, September 23, 2010, 9:52 AM
“It may be normal darling; but I’d rather be natural” -Truman Capote, Breakfast at Tiffany’s.
Jen – you are above and beyond normal and natural. You are handling everything with such strength, honesty and courage. Keep that and all of the love you have around you close to your heart. xo
by Colleen Dangerfield at Friday, September 24, 2010, 6:50 PM
There must be so much you are feeling from one moment to the next, it’s no wonder it can seem wildly daunting. I agree with everyone and am amazed at how thoughtful you’re being. I love, love, love you. xoxo.