im tired…i always feel like im tired..but i push myself to try and be “normal” (im so sick of that word, but there isn’t any other word to describe)..when asked to do one little thing in addition to what my mind has already prepared my body for, I feel completely overwhelmed.
and the people that get hurt are the ones that are around me most..
today, this moment, sucks.
by Sasha Rau at Wednesday, August 18, 2010, 10:59 AM
As I stated yesteday, I think what you are feeling makes total sense: both the desire to “be normal” and the complete overwhelm. Of course you’re tired and don’t want to be and of course you push yourself because you don’t want any of this to be your reality right now. But in order not to hurt yourself or the people around you, maybe there can be a middle ground between the absolute pushing and letting yourself feel what you feel? Love you.